十年的我

她跟我说，女孩子有时不要太坚强的好。
我说，不是我太坚强而是想寻找一个比我更坚强的人。这样我才会有安全感。

究竟你保护得太不露痕迹，还是伪装得太好？
曰：两者皆非。只是了解的人自然就会看得出我的脆弱。

亦或是太习惯那种跌到了再靠自己努力站起来的坚强？
曰：寻找不到那份安全感当然要靠自己努力站起来；当那份安全感就在身边，他自然会扶我一把。

那三天的努力是值得的。因为终于得到他的肯定。唯一不喜欢的是，想请那些没有贡献的人闭嘴否则不爽的程度增加。


比起之前，我更有所保留。什么都不想说，什么都不想解释。懂的人自然会懂；不懂的就罢了。到目前，只有一人能让我感受得到一丝丝的安全感。但我还得自己努力，因为她在课业上并不比我强。


P/S：最近听太多我最爱老林的歌（话说很多都是伤心情歌 >< ），搞得我的心情依然没什么好转。

Bad mood

It's a new semester. New semester = result release. This time, I got good news and bad news for it.

Lets start with bad news. My target for Photography fail. Aimed 'A', but get 'A-'. It's still acceptable. And here come the wtf! I got 'C-' for media law. Ish~ Definitely pull down my CGPA. Checked the CGPA for C- is 1.67.  wtf!

Jump to the good news part. First time get an A for his subject, but it's just an 'A-'. Anyway, I'm still glad for it. :)

After counting the CGPA myself, I got a BIG problem. It's not over 3, 2.88. I can't get the scholarship if the CGPA is not over 3. For the first time, I get a 'C'. And it is the worst 'C' I ever get. WTF!!!! It's because of the media law.. >~< I thought that I can get higher mark in this subject as I have the confident. In the end, WTF!!! I shall appeal for that subject. I can't believe it. :(
I have to get at least 'C+' to get scholarship for this stupid law subject.

WTF!!

Bad dream

Woke up with a bad dream ain't good, especially those make me feel sad. Cause it will affect my mood.

I had a dream which make me feel sad last night. It was mainly about I've not attend the class for a long time as I was so weak. When I'm back to school, I can't remember anything. My class, my seat and what had happen. I feel the sadness when he come to me and said 'I heard about you. They said that you didn't come to school is because you no longer have the heart to study.' I was like 'Yeah, I know what they talk about me.' but I kinda lazy to explain why. And people start can't understand me. They said that you have to say it out then people just know what you thinking. At the moment, I just thought of some friend, even he/she didn't say out anything, you still can understand them.

I woke up and think... Will someday I don't have the heart to study?
And my mood ain't so good because of the dream.....

#ItsGDay

Today is a big day for VIPs, fans of Big Bang. Why? Cause today is the team leader, Kwon Jiyong's birthday. At the age of 24, he can write and compose many pop song and they hit the top chart for several week. All Big Bang songs is written by him. Lies, Haru-haru, Last Farewell and a lot more are still loved by many. Although he's not my bias, but I admire his talent.

His hair style in the first half year of 2011. And he's bald now!

For those who can't recognize him, please visit this site and also view the link given at the bottom of the page. Then I think you can recognize him.. ;)

#ItsGDay today and tomorrow is #BB5thAnniversary

Featuring in EOS again

Oh yeah! I'm so glad that my photo is featuring in EOS world again. :D
Place taken: Permatang Damar Laut
Thanks to my friend who bring me there. A nice place to enjoy the strong wind by the beach. =)

Movies

Went for movies lately. To be more specific, it were comedy movies. It had been a long time I dint watch comedy as I always prefer action movie. ;)
By the way, watching comedy movie is so fun, especially the cinema is just you and your friend. You can laugh as loud as you can. No one care! WooHoo!!
Watched 'The Hangover Part II' with wen wen ooi and 'Zookeeper' with my lovely brother. My next target: Horrible Bosses. YAY!