I'm NOTHING, Life's NOTHING

For the first time, I feel that I'm NOTHING, ABSOLUTE NOTHING.....
And I feel LIFE is NOTHING.... Life no longer great-full for me....
There're so many night that I go to bed with tears, and wake up with no plan, no future in the morning...

Wonder if someday I'm lost, how many people will worry about me....
Wonder if I die someday, how many people will cry, 真心的流泪, for me.....
Wonder if I died and after I died, how many people will thought of me randomly.....

Sorry, but I don't know when I will finally go through these...

I see no light, no hope, no future...