Fallen Warrior

I've been fighting alone for so many years....
I always like to challenge new things and things that I don't really know about...
I never stop trying on new stuff...
I keep on learning new thing every lesson...
I always find that it's worth to 'fight for the war'....

However, this year is the toughest year for me...
I know I can fight alone IF I'm strong enough...
BUT, I'm not that strong...
I keep on bumping the wall...
One, Twice.... It's still OK...
When it up to more than ten times...
I start to feel pain, I start to feel scare...
Everything is like happen in a sudden...
I can't manage to handle all...
I'm still not recover from the previous pain, here come another challenges...
I'm not prepare, I'm don't feel safe...
And I start to mess up everything...
Then I don't feel safe at all....
I try to handle 'em, but somehow I can't...
I feel more pain, I feel scarier...
I wish I could give up everything...
YES, everything....
I'm falling...
Fall like there is no ending....
From the outer space to deep down ocean...

You may see that I'm fine from outside,
but inner is full of tears....
Tears that I always hide from the outside world...
If someday I collapse in front of you,
please don't be shock...
As I've been holding for so long....
So long enough until I can't stand for it anymore...

I need a hug...
I need YOU...

...Left vs. Right...

I cried... I cried for the pain... I cried for feeling sad...

AND I will be crying again and again...

as I can't control the tears...

and this situation will be last until end of next month I guess...

I spend one hour trying so hard to safe it, it become better a bit...

But half an hour later, it become swollen again... 

Somehow I feel like giving up on it...

Fall

很多时候都在想，为何今年就那么的不顺利，那么的不顺心……

21岁的今年，真的过的很不开心……

I just want to fall like there's no end... Just keel falling... 

Do you remember what I told you previously about this pic? I guess you've forgotten. 

不一样的21....

21，对我来说是很特别的
它代表着成长、沉稳、成熟
21岁的我，渐渐的变了很多
喜欢呆在家里培在妈妈的身边
喜欢做一些疯狂的事物
心，也变得特别有感触了

上半年的21，很轻松很自在
下半年的21，仿佛地狱般的生活
跟我想象中的21是完全不一样的
我想说，我只想回到上半年的21

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课业
突然觉得大学很容易交到朋友
但是问题在于课业方面的要求却比学院的来得差
学生最基本的是要知道老师为何regret你的功课
原因不在于老师的要求高，而是你不懂老师的是要什么
如果你的目标是3以上，那就请你把课业做好
如果可以，多做一些！这样分数就会比较高

很失望！
我做的每一个功课都是尽全力去做到最好
可是你们做的，一听就知道没做好准备，很多矛盾
感觉不时很开心
我做的，你们的分数也很高
你们做的，我的分数却变低了
想说，你们可以多放点心思吗？

不是我要求太高，而是你们根本就没有尽全力

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我的脚，此时此刻痛到不懂得怎么形容
就连走路都一拐一拐的
somehow后悔去找师父了

my leg.... T^T

Escape..

I SERIOUSLY NEED AN ESCAPE!!!!!!!!

You know, I want to be perfect... But I can't do it... :(
Make me feel like giving up, HOW????
Seriously, Y1S1 do such thing? I think maybe because of I aim too high d.. ~.~
Btw, I gotta learn AE and 3D Max during semester break...
Just to improve myself, not doing work like what I'm doing...
No quality at all... ><
It's a good idea, at least we think so, but then totally no quality at all....
I can imagine it nicely, but the problem is, I can't do it...
This seriously make me no mood to do it...
HOW HOW HOW
I'm STRESS!

I want go KL la.............................................
I want go Genting..........................................
To scream out sadness..................................
Seat there cry as loud as I want.....................

Why? Why can't be him? I'm curious...
After you said that sentence... I'm keep on thinking about it...
I wish to know the answer... I'll be asking, no worries...
Just don't tell me things that I don't wish to know about...

It's VIP D-DAY! ALIVE TOUR tix launching....
All expensive tix are sold out.. Left those that are cheaper...
I'll wait for the concert day and rock the stage down! ;)

생일 축하

最近情绪真的很低很低......
就很想放声大哭出来
偶尔控制不住眼泪而流了出来
自己也不清楚为何情绪可以这么低

开心你收到+很喜欢我给你的惊喜
不开心你到现在一句祝福语都没有
没关系，今天是你的mid-term
只想说：加油！

想给自己一个不一样的生日礼物
但，谁会陪我去疯狂一下？
我只是想去一个可以呐喊然后静静的坐着的地方

想对自己说：今天是你的生日，可以过得开心点吗？

死党，谢谢你给我的惊喜。

给自己的话：생일 축하

新成员

纯粹想轻松一下，不想给自己太大的压力……

家里即将多出一个新成员，感觉还蛮期待的！
*虽然自己本身不是很喜欢小孩子
看到别人的小孩很不听话的时候，感觉就很不喜欢
心想如果每个小孩都很乖很听话那就会很好，但这是不可能的
这基本上为什么我不喜欢小孩子的原因
但是，这次的感觉却不一样
因为她将会是家庭成员的一分子，而且又是第一个，所以感觉还蛮期待
期待看到她的样子……

快，快出来！！！！！LOL!